During a dark time in my life, I started wearing hoodies ... as security blankets under which I hid myself and a lot of pain. As I work through the pain, come out of hiding, and pack away the hoodies, this is the holding place for the memories and a reminder to embrace life.
Jump!
I jumped out of an airplane today ... on purpose. It was perspective altering and life giving. I didn't know I would be jumping until I got to the hangar. I am so glad I did it. I feel ... something. I have felt ... nothing ... for so long. When I looked out the door of the airplane, then hurled myself into the air with literally nothing between me and the ground, I FELT. And they were good feelings: excitement, happiness, freedom. It is as though I needed a hard reset on my emotional, physical, and mental well being ... and that was it. I feel ... something.